Dreaming..

christmas~

2005-12-26T02:08:00.000-08:00

christmas was great!
woke up at 7.30 (by the noise of my mom moving around the house and calling us all up). trudged to the toilet, washed up, and trudged back to my room. and i switched on my phone. that always makes me wake up and stop being sleepy :)
and i received 8 messages! i got so fed up of it vibrating i just dumped the phone and went to change, and i came back, and there were 8 new messages!~ all christmas greetings from phoebe, clare, elizabeth, ehui, alvina, alicia, titus and yunzhen.
and so, i went for church. the last song was feliz navidad sung ONLY by the choir, and it was fantastic! very nice beats, made me want to start dancing in the church. luckily i didn't, if not i would have fallen down. i bet.
meanwhile, another two smses from rachel and mk! ((: came back home after breakfast at the hawker centre to send ecards..it was soo fun choosing cards for all my relatives! then went on maplestory and stayed there for the rest of the day~
and my aunt uncle and cousins came over! whoots. i was pretty lonely though because they were all guys and talked like mad with my brother. but it got better after dinner - which was fabulous, by the way. the turkey was so nice! c'est deliceux!
helped mom prepare dinner too. fried prawn crackers, opened cans..all those little things that mom wouldn't have time to do. hee. and i boiled eggs too! my culinary skills are getting better ^_^
today..opened presents! i got a cup from my uncle and his family, earrings from mom, a "the incredibles" watch from dad, sports towels from my uncle on dad's side..i think that's all. not too bad, not too good, just right. :)
just now went to marina square, bought earrings~ i love my fork and spoon earrings! but so sad. don't think can wear to school. sigh.
christmas ends off well - and i'm getting over it
i hope.

2005-12-20T00:56:00.000-08:00

I FEEL WEIRD AND STUPID.

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2005-12-09T19:30:00.000-08:00

yesterday was the last day of performance..even though it means a break from all those intensive rehearsals and frustrating curtain call practices, it also means that we're not going to meet each other until january. it's only the day after the performance, and i'm already missing ballet ele like mad.
took lots of photos yesterday, but have yet to upload them. too lazy to..XDD i'll be super super super late for the post performance gathering later..now at french and later have organ. really really hope i can do well. i want to drop something but i don't know what..)':
watching nutcracker on 17th, i hope. CAN LAOSHI COME ALONG?

still madly infatuated

2005-12-07T18:32:00.000-08:00

why do i keep thinking he'd say it to me?
why do i think of him so much?
why does everything have to come back now?
why do i love him so much?
why can't i have him?
oh yes, i know that answer.
i know why i can't have him. not now.
now all i can do is make the most out of our time together.
the performance is today..i cannot be so distracted.
so many people i know are coming to watch..
but there are so many other girls he might like.
what makes me think he'll like me, and only me?
what makes me so likable?
what makes me think like this?
oh help..it has to come on now.

2005-12-06T17:23:00.000-08:00

i just received an email with the information and stuff to do with the orientation for sec ones next year. and i am SO gonna die. i realize how many things i need to do next year..and i'm not even sure i'm up to it.
performance coming up tomorrow..wish me luck everyone! my wound is acting up again >.<
ok this is an EXTREMELY SHORT POST.

2005-12-03T02:56:00.000-08:00

today had a truly horrible rehearsal..for me.
during the second full run with all the parents, i actually forgot two movements and wasn't able to do a third movement, and so, i ruined the whole thing. oh gosh. i'm really surprised laoshi didn't come after me to nag about it. whew~
i am so dead for next year..i can't even do sec two maths with ease anymore. keep having to ask ehui and yunzhen for help..oh no!!
and plus i haven't really been playing tennis. i haven't been fulfilling my daily quota of 20 push ups either! laoshi says i shouldn't do push ups because they'll make my shoulders (or is it elbows?) stiffer. oh no.
I AM SO NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO NEXT YEAR.

2005-12-02T03:12:00.000-08:00

the adventures of the safety pin!
during rehearsals today my costume got violently tugged at..and so, the safety pin came out! and it POKED at me through the dance..was really really really really really painful but when kind ol' jolly jillian helped me to put it back, it wasn't so bad. she said there were red dots on my back, but i can't seem to see any. hmm.
tomorrow is a full day of rehearsal..WHOOTS! meals at ppas with the rest of ballet ele, crapping around like idiots, imitating chicken little..one word. FUN!!
have to sleep early tonight. argh.

2005-11-30T05:28:00.000-08:00

oh well. finally blogging. after..very long.
have been rehearsing for 2105planeto for the past three days. now my legs are aching like MAD. throb throb throb.
today was really embarrassing. rushed to ppas from school..and i got really pissed and stressed because i couldn't help thinking that we had just one more meeting to finish our fridge magnet souvenirs and that we didn't manage to contact our teacher so i didn't do well (at least to my own expectations) in the very first run of our dance. and so, i started crying. and i was hiding behind ehui as i did so. sigh. but after that i was considerably better and got hyper. exercise gives out some hormone thingy (or something like that!!) which makes people have more energy.
good.

pain - noun.
1. suffering or distress
2. an unpleasant sensation occurring in various degrees as a results of injury, disease, or emotional disorder

i think i'd choose the second one, even though i'm already indifferent to it.

2005-11-19T18:59:00.000-08:00

THERE'S A POST UNDER THIS.

Rules:
1) post 5 weird or random facts about yourself.
2) at the end,write 5 people's name,the people who you want to do this quiz next.then tag in their blog to leave them a note to tell them to see your blog.

My 5 weird/random facts:
1. i usually only type in small letters.
2. i love the song BIBBIDI BOBBIDI BOO.
3. i hate horror movies. nightmares ahoy.
4. i love to exercise. the sweating part is really "shuang".
5. i'm a perfectionist.

The people I want to do this quiz:
1. Desiree
2. Yunzhen
3. Ehui
4. Laoshi (whee hee~)
5. Lynette?

2005-11-19T18:47:00.000-08:00

i love ushering! whoohoo. it's so fun. x)
I AM NEVER GOING OUT IN FLIPFLOPS AGAIN WITHOUT PLASTERS. i was late because i rushed out of the house and then i brisk walked (again!) to the bus stop..and when i got on to the 80, my right leg was killing me. so painful! the bit of skin hanging on to that poor injured foot..then when it finally reached my stop, i limped out of my seat, down the stairs, out of the bus and into the 7-11 and all around the shop, looking for plasters. in the end bought a box of transparent plasters and went up to jubilee hall then walked to bugis to eat at pastamania. my money is flying away :(
later there's ballet..desiree says she's coming for open class. i desperately hope i won't flunk and i'll be able to chaine because most probably laoshi might set something like that. must end up sweating like a freak.
kimmy's on holiday..i think i shall write her letter tomorrow instead of today. ^_^
k i think i better get ready for my postponed-from-yesterday-to-today organ lesson.

2005-11-18T19:36:00.000-08:00

went for ushering at jubilee hall yesterday. so fun!
mom dropped me off at kfc at rocher road at 6.20pm, and i was supposed to be at raffles hotel at 6.30pm..so i freaked out and tried running in my skirt. please never try this - i had a horrible experience. i ended up brisk walking (alvina would be proud of this) all the way there and reached raffles hotel one minute early. sigh.
tore tickets like mad when the house was open. then got bored because there was no one left outside with me, so i walked all around, before i saw kuolaoshi eating. she must be h-u-n-g-r-y. and ehui said the thingy was cheem or something like that.
tonight i'm watching the second half of zhu guang. YEA~ and tear more tickets, take pictures with yunzhen and shujing (i think)..^_^ FUN!
oh yea. ushering tonight again. i think i'll wear my black pleated skirt plus the flipflops owen gave me. yesterday night was my straight black skirt plus tennis shoes. don't ask why the weird combination. it was raining.

2005-11-15T06:12:00.000-08:00

got my postings today. it's not exactly what i wanted..but it's not exactly what i don't want either.
going to 3e5. taking history..x)
same combination as ehui so we can study together!

2005-11-11T05:51:00.000-08:00

bahh. i feel so lousy.
for the past two nights i've been having nightmares..like, it's the same old lecherous guy, with the vest and shorts and extra good stamina, with me in my school uniform and with my school bag. and last night it was worse..i was running around and at time i felt like i wouldn't make it out of the nightmare. oh gosh. when i woke up i found out my hand's position was exactly like how it was in my dream..it was really freaky. all the bad memories coming back. *shudder*
ok i shall talk about something more cheerful.
finally claimed my cheese fries yesterday! x) laoshi met up with ehui at the zebra crossing (something like that) and me and yunzhen saw each other in bugis, then we went SHOPPING! fun fun fun. but before that i got my giraffe from bearyhip! so cute!! help me think of a name for my nice cute fat giraffe..
today went to ngee ann city with owen after lunch with mom. BOUGHT MY LONG DESIRED TATTY BEAR KEYCHAIN! :) my wishlist is getting shorter (i'm so glad), i'm getting broke-r (i'm so sad), but still, it's better than nothing.
tomorrow got french! and organ! and i haven't practiced the organ for AGES. so dead.
it's 9.50pm now and i don't dare to sleep. help!! i'm so scared the nightmare will come back..

2005-11-09T06:43:00.000-08:00

had a wild fantasy just now..about me and my crush. oh geez. this is stupid.i must be going crazy. he was next to me..on a motorcycle. this can never happen, because i'll never be able to drive a motorcycle. sigh.oh well. back to the better things.was supposed to go out with ehui and her sis today, but in the end we did lots of work at ppas. so super fun! and i wanted to ask laoshi this question, in the end i didn't, and when i called him back up to ask about the tickets, he asked whether that was the question i wanted to ask. it wasn't..i shall keep him guessing! x) this is fun.took one neo and then went to the library! borrowed comics, stories and a maths and a science book. so fun! i like i like i like!! (getting hyper.) tomorrow going to play tennis and then going to claim my cheese fries ("ivy: XDD" "laoshi: :S") then going for my makeup class. i don't want to go home with a face of makeup. i hope it's drawing on paper. oh cool. how cool. I AM GOING CRAZY. AND I HATE BANNERS.

TAG, PEOPLE! MY BOARD IS DEAD!

2005-11-05T03:22:00.000-08:00

today. had french class..it was pretty nice, we made a story, and had to do lots of listening and writing. i'll post it when i get the piece of work back from my teacher..x)then i went down the stairs at alliance francais, and i thought i heard someone calling my name. (actually, my teacher WAS calling my name but i didn't know.) so i walked on and on and out of the school and out of the carpark and to the bus stop and was walking to the mrt, and i still heard someone calling my name.turned out, it was my teacher! oh yes, mr ywoozer (pronounced woo-zer) was calling me. some kind guy at the bus stop was yelling for me too because i had almost stuck my ipod earphones into my ear before i realized someone was really calling for me. sigh. mr ywoozer wanted to tell me that since i didn't sit for the (extremely stupid) test the last lesson of the term because i was at camp, i would be assessed by my oral performance in class because that was the same paper was before, just a different oral passage. and that i should continue developing my so-called "beautiful imagination". i think when i post my story, you'll know why i have this "beautiful imagination".

2005-11-03T18:31:00.000-08:00

whoohoo!
went out with mom the last few days..heh. on monday we bought two skirts (for me..one nice black pleated one) and a shirt for her. and we made this really long list of stuff she'd want to get from g2000 the moment she remembers to bring her discount coupon along. whoots.
then yesterday we got two op tees! WHOOHOO! i like. it's guy's cutting..but who cares. i love them! and i got (correction: mom got for me) a camera pouch! so cool right? right right? and i got my cd casing! so many things off my needed-to-organize-room list. heh.
sorry evonne and kimmy..i spoilt the outing on wednesday with my stupid cramps.

2005-10-28T03:52:00.000-07:00

i feel so OFF today..just not myself.
firstly, i just flunked the one and only badminton match that i played in this morning. couldn't catch ANY of the five serves. got really pissed at myself because i was so nervous. my whole arm was shaking and my palms were sweating really bad. i wished i stuck to playing doubles with syikin instead.
then we had operation cleanup. i didn't feel too well, had a slight headache..so didn't really enjoy the financial literacy game (cashflow) that we had after that. then went home..
not a very eventful day.
now i'm feeling so touchy-feely that i don't even feel like doing anything. maybe i should have followed HER.

2005-10-26T00:46:00.000-07:00

i wish somebody would crush me. shake me and wake me up from this nightmare.
despite the fact that i've put in so much more effort than before for my studies, i still missed my goal by so much. i've deproved by so much..now i don't think i can even get into the stream of my choice.
i worked so hard, actually forced myself to study, and yet i didn't get what i wanted, what i really needed. i told myself i had to get good results, get into triple science, do well, get into vjc, get into nus, become a good performing arts practitioner or just help out at mom's office. every bit of goal in my life had this word on it: PERFECTION. the many nights i've prayed that i'd have the courage to do well for my studies, that i'd have the strength to carry on studying; the many nights i prayed that i would be able to continue all my duties and be able to juggle my work, my social life, my duties well; the many nights i've prayed that i wouldn't fall down because of overwork because i knew once i fell, all that i had done before would be nothing. it was like the blasting of napoleon's windmill in animal farm - solid blocks of stone became nothing but dust.
i'm now at the national library..there's ballet later and i don't feel like wandering in bugis, since i can't play at the arcade. some punching stuff would have helped me vent some frustration. i am so pissed at myself..mom might not be disappointed (or maybe she's trying not to show her disappointment) but i am really upset. i can't believe that throughout my two miserable secondary school years i have slacked one year, worked one year, and instead got better marks for my slacked-year rather than my worked-year. i can't believe how stupid i am.
i'm not going to be getting another two of my goals - edusave merit bursary or good progress award. deprovement and still called progress? i think my results are a stupid piece of SHIT according to my standards. i missed all my a1s, i scraped a miserable 3 a2s instead of my usual four or five and i have a whole handful of b3s and b4s.
i know i promised myself not to swear anymore on my blog, but i can't help it anymore. i'm too upset and pissed off to care.
WHAT THE FUCK.

2005-10-17T06:12:00.000-07:00

had school today. slacked the whole day away..except for one hour and forty-five minutes which we spent going through the english paper.
got a horrible headache during the comprehension checking..till now, it hasn't really stopped. sigh. i need to get good marks for my exams!! GRR.
i feel so lousy. like some rebellious teenager which i'm trying not to be.
GEEZ. what is wrong with me!?

2005-10-15T21:55:00.000-07:00

i've move the 2105planeto information to "others". go there to check! =)
geez on friday i let myself go..feelings flying everywhere, and now i'm in a big mess. why did he even COME ONLINE anyway? guys love to mess up our lives, don't you think?
oh man. i've messed up my life again. what a fantastic, wonderful time to do so.
getting back exam results tomorrow. for english!! oh no oh no. i need to do well.
backache!! how to go for ballet?
sorry this is a really random post.

2005-10-12T06:16:00.000-07:00

cockroach + little girl = mysterious adventure!

2105 Planet O tells of a time in the future where giant cockroaches rule the Earth. With her best friend, Xiao Qiang the cockroach, Olivia sets out on a journey that will take her around the universe as she hopes to find a special seed that can save the world! This is a story about courage, teamwork and determination.
The old wizard comes into the story later..To catch some really cool swinging action, book tickets for the science-fiction drama! Details are as follows:

Venue: Kallang Theatre
Days: 8th and 9th December
Time: 8pm
Ticket Prices: $20 and $25
Family Packages: Four $20 tickets for $72
Four $25 tickets for $90

Order tickets now! Call 63372525, go to www.ppas.edu.sg or give me a call, I'll see what I can do.
Meanwhile, please keep my tagboard alive. Thanks!

2005-10-08T06:48:00.000-07:00

bleh. finished science revision just now..you should have just heard me chanting in my room. all the definations, formulas and words spinning through my head..the functions, structures, symbols, molecules and atoms..at least i think i'm prepared for the test. i hope. wish me good luck everyone! i think i'll need to score 'a's for everything to get what i want. heh.
i survived the past few days on a revision binge, and now i feel so guilty.
thursday: gobstoppers
friday: cadbury chocolate
saturday: calbee hotnspicy chips
oh man. i'm so dead.

2005-09-27T07:08:00.000-07:00

new keyboard! i love it. heheh.
exams are coming..expect less updates..need to mug mug mug my head off!

2005-09-22T06:17:00.000-07:00

k. the story of my knees.
today after handball during pe, i was a good girl and WALKED instead of ran. and then after maths i couldn't WALK properly. so i limped around for geog, then after that it was better, then after that i had tuition, then in the middle of that i couldn't walk AGAIN. so i limped around again, and then now after i got home it was better. yea, that's the story of my knees.
it's very lame and what-not, but just tag on my board. thx!

exams coming..trying to mug my head off

2005-09-16T06:26:00.000-07:00

thursday
last training until the exams are over. very slack..practiced smash. my smash is horrible i keep hitting my frame and hitting the ball somewhere it's not supposed to be. geez.
friday
tuition. our teacher called up my ex-tuition mate and so i talked to him on the phone for five minutes, exchanged handphone numbers and started smsing. did i mention my sms limit exploded? now i have to pay all the extras!! freak. apparently i became hyper again so now i think being hyper is the result of chocolate ice blended bubble tea.

PLEASE REVIVE MY TAGBOARD! STUPID EHUI KILLED IT! thanks thanks thanks thanks thanks!

ps. must study extra hard and beat liz!!

2005-09-14T05:56:00.000-07:00

cip stuff made me crazy today. finished one and a half hours of cip at ppas today..i'm just hoping and praying that the tennis teacher will endorse the letter and then the cip teacher will actually ACCEPT IT without killing me with another scolding. geez.
i'm feeling really bad today.

2005-09-12T21:37:00.000-07:00

sunday
i had my first performance! we had one rehearsal before that and i'm really glad that i was able to shanny (sorry laoshi, i can't remember how to spell correctly) and i could do my pique turns YAY! so happy. can't wait for the finals to be over so i can do shannys and pique turns all day, right, ehui? heheh. helped with moving the floor after that..=) CIP HOURS!
monday
training in school!! fitness, ladder, lots of serve. now i have muscle ache everywhere. geez. anyway, i got really tired. KNEE ACHE!! someone help me!! wahlau. and a bit of stomach ache also. stupid lah.
today
going to do geog project later. i need to confirm whether i can go to ppas for cip! yea~ i love ppas! 2105planetofairymonster heheh!! i love ballet!

2005-09-10T04:46:00.000-07:00

friday
ballet conference! funny, entertaining and stupid at the same time. it was really funny because ehui and i were looking around, talking about when laoshi would come and what he would be wearing. suddenly i just turned to the right and saw him peeking over a newspaper, sitting on the floor, looking for US! i just started laughing and couldn't stop and ehui was like, "where's laoshi? where is he?" and i couldn't STOP laughing. then after that all of us came, yun zhen, yun jie, xinying, shujing..we walked ONE BIG ROUND to the coffee bean, sat there and TALKED. talked about the splitting of our class next year, a trip to cambodia or laos next year, joining modern dance or tanzigong next year (fun! PURE FUN!) and cip. after that went back to ppas to try shoes (nice new white shoes) and went off for the opera, which was super funny. hilarious jokes and wonderful cantonese, which is a fantastic combination. i'm glad my mom brought me along instead of leaving me alone at home.
saturday
had my photo shoots! wendi told us that me and yunzhen were supposed to be the only ones done with the FULL FAIRY MONSTER MAKEUP! and it is really cool and nice except for the fact that it couldn't come off properly. i had glitter all over my face and looked really stupid walking home with a little grey coloured hair, and a face of glitter. laoshi was all white and the ahkong makeup really made me want to start laughing and tugging at his "beard", which looked pretty authentic. tomorrow have one performance! whee~ and the costume is really tight but really nice. it's supposed to look like a tube dress and it's revealing. at least we have the white leotard inside instead of just bits of cloth hanging outside.

2005-09-08T04:58:00.000-07:00

YES! i finally finished my geography ca. THREE CHEERS FOR ME!
i must be growing hyper. today i went crazy during tuition and my hyperness was supposedly due to chocolate ice blended bubble tea.

2005-09-07T05:43:00.000-07:00

i've been very obediently doing algebra everything for two miserable days, and now i've got letters swimming around my brain. it's part of a plan to make myself improve in maths and get a better grade, before i get killed for another below standard result. geez. i hate algebra. i hate GRAPHS. the rest are all fine. NO ALGEBRA NO GRAPHS!! REBEL!!
ok. i am going to play maplestory now. level 16!

2005-09-06T03:20:00.000-07:00

heheh. went to ngee ann city just now. it was FUN!
pawpaw and i went to kinokuniya to find some chinese books on massage. helped her find one of them and then went off to look at some books to do on decoding the da vinci code. then after that went into takashimaya and bought some stainglass templates and stamper pens!! so cute! heheh. my allowance is speedily dwindling. after that..went to plaza sing in search of my long-wished-for roxy wallet!! wahlau. the ripcurl store was sold out!! evonne and i were really pissed (we were communicating via sms). i can't even find another wallet which i like. hope my wallet won't suffer so much and will live longer. came back to heartland mall and went on the rampage to search for another wallet, and i couldn't find something that i liked. geez.
today i was so guai. finished two exercises in the maths textbook even though i hate, dislike and greatly despise mathematics. that's my quota for each day if i need to go out, one if it's a school day and five if i'm staying at home doing nothing. heheh. that's only for algebra, my most horribly weak subject.
k i gtg eat now. please tag! thx.

2005-09-05T19:15:00.000-07:00

i was planning to post something and i forgot what. oh well.
last sunday i had ballet..and my teacher brought in his skeleton model to give us a theory lesson on hip joints. he walked and walked with the skeleton and THE SKELETON'S LEG FELL OFF!!! ehui and i were laughing our heads off. it was fun. didn't dance very well though because my ankles were off course. sad.
YAY! FRIDAY GOING TO MEET UP WITH BALLET PALS! but we're gonna have a conference though. ='( i don't like!! i'll stare at my shoes instead.

2005-09-03T02:28:00.000-07:00

i feel so dead.
today had french. i was quite apprehensive about it and didn't look forward to my first lesson without yulin OR rachel. i can't seem to fit in with xinyu and the others..i feel like an extra butting into their class, because other than me and kenneth, there's no one else from our original class..i feel like quitting to join another ballet class or something. and electone..i can't seem to play even one of the simplest songs i'm supposed to be able to sightread. that's pathetic. my sight reading skills are like the worst in the class!! geez. i didn't feel like doing anything today.
changed my layout. nice? please comment! =) thx.

is it possible? my heart has fallen for him

2005-08-31T01:57:00.000-07:00

today was teacher's day celebrations and aces day..i was panicking because i forgot to bring my script for aces day (i couldn't find it). the second script that i forgot to bring. sheesh. so i was praying and hoping that ms ann would be there..and then when it was going to start she came! WHOO HOO! GO MS ANN! she saved my life man. so i went to dance on the tables. geez. all of us SLs were terrified of jumping on the tables. so we just bounced on the tips of our toes during the jumping jack part. heheh. i know it's stupid, but yea. glad that it's finally over. YEA~
then we had the party! it was fun spraying stuff onto the teachers..then we talked about all kinds of rubbish stuff..alvina and i were crapping away (i think i was hyper due to the children's party yesterday) and then it was time to clean up! then we went for the concert. quite cool. but i became tired after a while..*yawn. then just now when i came back i started doing homework and i fell asleep while doing trigo. -.-" oh well. at least i finished the summary. and the teachers have a TEACHER'S DAY LUNCH. not fair.

2005-08-26T21:31:00.000-07:00

yesterday was cross country..i ran until so lousy lah!! i was planning to sprint at the last part but i was too tired to..so in the end my position so lousy. and i didn't even manage to beat kimmy or lynette or evonne. hmph. damn pissed with myself. couldn't even reach my goal. after the run we had the parade..no space to do cartwheel so we didn't do and just stood at the side watching the performance. then i ran back to do duty..it was fun hitting balloons everywhere and playing chaptek with them. heheh.
now i've got a horrible muscleache!! and somemore i can't concentrate on maths!! i've slacked too much..need to start doing other chapters other than stupid formula-ful mensuration. geez. i hate maths.

im falling in love

2005-08-25T04:21:00.000-07:00

had a horrible time today. i had this weird feeling and my leg went numb all of a sudden..like no strength and i had to drag it along. lucky the pain only lasted for around 5 minutes each time..geez. tmr got cross country!! got parade!! got duty!! got a lot of things!! sorry this post is lame and crappy. i'm listening to hi5.

2005-08-24T04:59:00.000-07:00

went to pack hampers today. alvina and i were stuck in the hod room at first, making a lot of noise because i kept lapsing into laughter due to her witty sarcastic remarks. we were pretty noisy and a couple of teachers thought so too i guess, so the pe dept head shooed us into the sick bay and we were stuck in there like criminals in jail. at least i had music for company..our packing was super horrible though. it's embarassing because my parents specialize in packaging. gee.
then after that played tennis for a miserable half hour against the wall. my shots are so horrible!! i can't seem to move my feet, can't aim properly..there must be something seriously wrong with my senses this week. my hitting is off center.
going to set up a photo blog soon..very lazy to. i feel like training in maplestory..i'm still level 10 after dying around 10 times.

2005-08-22T05:34:00.000-07:00

saturday
while rushing to kembangan cc for zany stuff, i sort of "tripped" over this puddle of water. and trust my very-extremely-loose pants, my mp3 dropped out!! it FELL into the puddle, and rachel and yulin were like "oh my gosh!" "faster faster!! wipe it!! ipod better than zen lah but still wipe!!" i was freaking out and wiping my poor ipod shuffle like crazy while some guy went to talk to yulin and rachel about some christian stuff. i just kept my head down and brisk walked to the mrt station. heheh. yea that's about it. spent some time doing zany stuff and finishing part of the geography script.
sunday
i finally got my long awaited nice SMALL bible!! so happy! it cost $16.50..had to ask my brother to lend me 5 dollars. now i have debts on my paying-back list. =( ballet was fun but i wasn't really trying..felt tired and stuff. and then laoshi told me some stuff and now i feel depressed.
today!
no energy to do anything, played tennis like shitty beginner. couldn't even AIM for the ball. coach thought i was sick or something, my hitting was so terrible. nearly burst into tears. i am seriously going crazy. and i left my thumbdrive at school!! it better be there tomorrow morning. IT BETTER! hmph. i'm gonna die if it's gone. people please help!! i've got so much stuff saved in there..all the projects i've been doing for av and whatever. and if i lose my av contact lists..ANOTHER DAY OF HEADACHE! have to retype and do everything, and then mumtash will probably start cursing me..i already owe her the contact lists. geez.
save my board!

2005-08-18T05:31:00.000-07:00

yay!! i'm finally a thief after so long in maplestory. level up-ed to level ten today, so i went to kerning city and i became an official thief!! and then i died. TWICE! once to a tree trunk and once to a green mushroom. gosh. and i've got 14% exp like that. gee. and i can kill with one stroke 20plus hp from the other person gone!! whoo!! so cool right? ^,,^

2005-08-18T04:07:00.000-07:00

today training was cool. i think other tennis-ers will think i'm crazy to say that i don't find fitness all that bad. we did 15-20 minutes worth of fitness, and i was stuck in the centre of the circle for three quarters of the time. wasn't that bad..went around chasing people to jog on the spot. then after that we did some hip flexibility and strength exercise (with coach richard) and then when we changed stations to coach qing, we had the ladder race thing!! it was really fun, and mag and i went chasing each other round and round the two ladders. it was just to help in our footwork. ^,,^ <-- my new smiley. nice? or should i make another one?
so tired. today our operations manager came in to relief mdm surayah, and everybody was talking about some or most of the bad points of tkgs. like the small premises, the used-for-nothing patch of grass at the circular block, the uniform..the list goes on and on. and she kept saying "take out your maths books" and no one did. we just pestered her to let us prepare for iap, and SHE ACTUALLY LET US! whoo hoo!
yea that's it. continue tagging on my board please! thx thx thx thx thx!

2005-08-17T06:04:00.000-07:00

i just finished finding all the meanings and stuff for the english vocab thing. bloody hell!! i seriously think my english teacher has a grudge against me. everytime check papers also minus mark one! and she keeps saying that i'll be rewarded for my honesty. i guess i just have to wait long long for that reward.
today i came to school cough-less. and then, this afternoon, after the nile excursion thingy, i went to eat bbq flavoured twisties, and i got the cough AGAIN. sheesh. speaking of the nile, it was horrible. not exactly horrible, just torturous. i had to endure a headache after the movie and the sensation of wanting to puke but not able to puke, and then we had to tolerate this lady who presented the powerpoint "lecture" on the nile and its statistics or something. she just practically read from the slides, according to desiree. i nearly fell asleep. laura was nodding off next to me. and did i tell you what alvina did?
smart as alvina is, she brought ovaltines sweets to eat. then she DROPPED the packet in the little gap in between the step and the chair in front of her. so she couldn't reach it, and alicia couldn't reach it, so i wiggled over to her seat and extracted the packet for her. at least it was funny seeing how shocked she was to find out that she couldn't get her ovaltines.
k i wanna go train somemore in maplestory. i'm still a pathetic level 9 thief-to-be.

2005-08-14T18:24:00.000-07:00

i am feeling more pissed than ever today. don't rub it in that i have a horrible score for geog test. freak. i failed the class expectations and pulled down my humanities average and i'm getting really pissed. don't even know what's happening to me. so tired nowadays..can't even STUDY for a MCQ test properly. MCQ YOU KNOW!! SUPPOSED TO GET AT LEAST 14!!!! whatever better scores i ever got will never be able to pull it UP!!!
f**k. i didn't want to go see a doctor and now i've got these horrible coughing fits sometimes and i DIDN'T DO WELL IN MY TEST! HAPPY NOW!
im still emotionally unstable.

2005-08-11T05:39:00.000-07:00

i know it has been an extremely long time since i last blogged.
i fell sick on friday..and then i suffered from a horrible cough (and am still suffering) through all my lessons and BALLET. i couldn't even TURN too fast because all the phlegm was choking me up. almost died this morning playing with natalie before school.
i got my iPod shuffle!! so cool right. it's really really really really really nice!! uploaded all my songs already..so cool!!!! sorry. i am emotionally unstable. very unstable.
hmm. keep my tagboard alive, please.......

2005-08-03T01:39:00.000-07:00

i forgot to bring almost everything today. my foolscap, maths text, my file..stupid right? so tired. *yawn
today practically sucked like hell lah. hung out like an extra with the rest of the aces dancers and felt like an outcast the way the dance club dancers were dancing. got really fed up so i left at 3.30, and then i called mom, and she said that my aunt hadn't given her a call yet so i had to go to her office. wish i said there was homework to do and hung out in the library or comp lab till she came to pick me up.
so now, i'm stuck in the office with this ultra-lag computer and a splitting headache. just hope later when i go to kinokuniya i can get my long-awaited fountain pen..if i have enough, i might get two!! who knows when i might next go to that nice big bookshop? =) also going to the libraray..
i don't feel like myself. i'm all sleepy. maybe i'm coming down with something due to the lack of sleep again. why always like this one?! everytime others can sleep so late and nothing happens to them but once i sleep later for maybe, a few nights, i fall sick with a one-day virus. gosh.

2005-08-01T00:40:00.000-07:00

today was a truly disastrous day for my hand. i went to videoworld to eat, and i scalded my hand by accidentally spilling the instant noodles soup onto it. how stupid can i get?! now it hurts so bloody damned much. gosh.
now viewing av stuff and planning to send to my own email. i refuse to stay back in school just to find out the telephone numbers of my fellow service-board-mates. sheesh.
my hand hurts. don't dare to run it under cold water because IT HURTS LIKE HELL!!
in school now, btw. in the library. comp lab not open so i waited for an hour for one computer. this is dumb. i can't wait to get home and start doing my maths assessment just to reassure myself for tomorrow's test. oh well. wish me luck, people. maths test tomorrow. i need to get a terrific mark for this.

2005-07-30T05:58:00.000-07:00

i'm depressed. waddefuck. everything's going wrong again

2005-07-30T03:25:00.000-07:00

today woke up to find myself with forty-five minutes to spare for doing one chapter of maths, brunch, packing my bag and changing my clothes. decided to forgo the maths (smart choice, eh?) and rushed like mad finding all my french and electone stuff, just to realize that my mom was driving me to fas. so i took my time to eat and reached fas at 11.30, the usual time. went up to the cafe and had a strawberry smoothie with yulin.
somehow, can't wait for ballet tomorrow. you will probably think that i'm going crazy or something. i need to vent some frustration.
TAG! thx. =)

2005-07-28T05:25:00.000-07:00

today had the 2.4 run..i finally got my "a"!! so happy!! my timing was 14.33 minutes..=)
after that rushed off for av duty..stuck in the control room for so long that i nearly fell asleep. when the g-o-h was talking me, the av technicien(sp?) and mumtash (the av board chairman) were talking about pot bellies. it was so funny. i was playing away with the lights.
then after school i went for the geography trek thing. so fun!! alvina had major laughing fits, and when she laughed, i looked at her (or heard her) and i would start laughing. took lots of photos with the camera..going to upload them soon.
ok ok!! if i tag on my own board tag on it too, please?

2005-07-23T02:14:00.000-07:00

i was one hour and a few minutes late for french today. learned about tout, tous, toute, and toutes.
had english, maths and gat tests this morning. i am proud to announce that i didn't know a single thing for the maths and english test, and that i'll only score on the gat test, because i managed to finish 38 puzzles in 28 minutes. heheh. practically whizzed through that paper.
must start doing ballet homework. heheh. and training for napfa!! this year must get gold..i never ever get gold before and i feel so paiseh. every year also miss the gold because of situps, then last year because of sit n reach, and this year it'll probably be because of the standing broad jump or 2.4 run.

2005-07-22T01:48:00.000-07:00

today during av i was slacking away..sitting on the nice couch in the office, and then suddenly the av teacher plopped down next to me and started talking to me. "blah blah blah..remind me to..blah blah blah" and then suddenly her teacher friend came in. "blah blah blah somemore" and she talked somemore (not to me though). i realized she's much better as a friend than a teacher..heheh. sad. couldn't go parkway today..i would probably have SPLURGED anyway. need to save up for my mp3. already eyed the Muvo X-trainer but it's so expensive!! just gotta save up.

2005-07-21T04:22:00.000-07:00

today the av rehearsal for prefects' investiture wasn't that boring after all. i could stay up in the control room playing with all the lights and stuff. so cool! i made different background colours using blue, yellow and red. though after the rehearsal i didn't really dare to play so much because mdm chee and mrs kong was in the hall and they looked really angry.
timing for 2.4km run was really lousy (in my standards). i'm still at c!! i need to improve and get an A! gosh. and my shuttle run has decreased by ONE WHOLE MINUTE!! wonder whether it's the effect of my worn out shoes. oh well. i shall wear my tennis shoes on the day of napfa. and i can finally do 17 pull ups!! so cool right? i finally get my 'a' for pull ups again! but my standing broad jump isn't that good though. decreased by approximately 10cm to a 160cm. i must jump more!! heheh.
gtg. tag on my board please!

2005-07-19T02:27:00.000-07:00

somehow, just now, i got very pissed off. it was just a friend asking "why are you going mad?" and i just SNAPPED. i just wanted to start yelling my head off and shaking my friend and saying that she'll NEVER EVER UNDERSTAND HOW I'M FEELING.
it doesn't help to know that alvina is undergoing the exact same thing as me. it's not the physical pain which hurts me, its the feeling of not being able to control myself. last time when i was frustrated, i could go and exercise a hell lot and work off all my anger. i could just kick and punch or cut and scratch and after that, i would feel much better. but now, after seeing my ballet teacher's horrible lump on the knee, i'm scared. i don't want the same lump to grow on my knee.
it feels like i've got no control over my life. no control over myself. now when i do something i feel like i can't do it the way i did it before. if i could dance last year, this year i can't anymore. if i could hit the ball over the net, i get really frustrated when i can't do it now.
you know what? after my appendicities operation i really hoped i could get into shape fast, and continue my chinese dance syf and ballet. i really tried very hard to do my best for the syf, but somehow i feel that i didn't. when i jumped, i didn't go as high as before. when i tried to do a split, i couldn't. it was like, all my muscles atrophied or something?!
then this year. i didn't expect to hurt myself so badly after i fell down and then continued to run my 200m sprint. i couldn't stand the feeling of sitting on a chair or lying on the bed, helpless without my crutches. i made up my mind to get well really fast, and then get back on my feet and get back in control of my life, resume all my activities. i did. i managed to do it. but it's like, everything that i do comes out worse than ever. worse than before i injured myself, no matter how hard i work.
i want to control something. i wanna go and vent my frustration somewhere. BUT WHERE CAN I DO IT?! HUH!? WHAT DOES THIS CRAPPY WORLD WANT WITH ME?!

did i ever commit myself to helping the school? then why am i always helping them?

2005-07-17T06:29:00.000-07:00

i think that i am crazy
i think i'm going mad
i think i'm never gonna get back
the life i've always had

i feel so helpless. so not in control.
I WANT TO BE BACK IN CONTROL OF MY LIFE!

2005-07-15T03:18:00.000-07:00

went for my leg checkup today. don't remind me of how sucky it was.
today, i was a good girl. i helped to "repair" the visualiser in comp lab 4 by sticking the light back in. and i "helped" to repair the keyboard at kimmy's comp by sticking the wire somewhere. heehee.
during english we heard this announcement about major thefts in the school and a spotcheck. so we went back to class, and ms saffiah started checking our bags. and she stopped checking after she checked my bag. -.-" anyway, she saw my deep heat rub, and she thought it was TOOTHPASTE. oh my gosh. i was laughing hysterically.
k i gotta let my bro use the comp. so see ya. and TAG!

2005-07-14T04:46:00.000-07:00

now i know how some people feel when they hear something which sounds really "don't carish".
today after running on the stupid new route for four rounds, i hurt my left knee, and now it still hurts. going for the checkup tomorrow..hope i didn't twist anything accidentally or something. *crosses fingers
very tired. going to write an email to gillian. heehee. anyway..i've got a new smiley. ^.^ is it ok? please comment (on my tag board). bye bye.

2005-07-13T01:56:00.000-07:00

the songs that i copied into my thumbdrive DOESN'T PLAY. sheesh.
yesterday played lots of tennis against the tennis wall. so fun! i'm weird. but it was fun whacking the ball towards the wall and i didn't need to go and pick it up. and then these two sec 3 girls came along and they wanted to play (but they didn't know how to). so i lent them my racket and amazingly, they hit quite well even though the grip was wrong. then a ball flew into the net and stayed on the roof of the rifle range. we climbed up and picked all the balls and threw them down and then they went home and i started playing again. heehee.
now cbox is not loading and it's driving me crazy. i only have the chance to check my tagboard after two days and it HAS to be down. stupid thing.
met loads of teachers today when handing up my macritchie reservoir trek form and passing up english stuff. it's too stupid to say out here.

6. alvina
hi alvina. you're not going to read this so i think i shall just write one sentence about you. thanks for being my cantonese-speaking, basketball-playing, nonsense-crapping pal.

7. ehui
heyo! ballet rocks forever, right? =) thanks for laughing like mad and being a good audience of my funny songs (sorry i haven't thought of another one yet) and giving me inspiration so i could write TWO songs while waiting for the mrt at bugis and the bus at aljunied. just hope my mom gives me more chances to take mrt home myself so we can make more songs! and practicals suck even though they're so easy to score in. my youth facilitator (erica) said that i was holding the mouth of the test tube so tightly that when i tested for hydrogen, it made a huge pop instead of a small pop. sigh.

8. kimmy
hi kimmy! so..it's finally your turn. and you must write me a dedication too, ok? if not you owe me lots of testimonials. heheh. so..thanks for playing tennis with me and defining "hard shot" for me to julia. =) and for goodness sake!! update your blog lah!! stupid girl never updates. hmph. one day i shall stop trying to revive your blog. and when you read my blog tag hor! you owe me lots of tags from last time. ok now i have to go on to the next dedication (which is for julia) so..i will write you another dedication if i am satisfied with what you write about me. oh yea, have you asked mr lim to fix our intranet connection yet?

9. julia
thanks for being a good chairman for semester one! you...rock! erm..keep improving your tennis and we can play together again one day! so cool right? don't worry you have ballsense. you just need to BREATHE, and use your racket to whack the ball back at me. so yea. sorry about this super short dedication but i gotta go. sorry!!

2005-07-10T06:32:00.000-07:00

4. deborah

hey deb! never knew you all that well until the end of last year. but i'm still here to write you a dedication (though i think it'd be rather short).
last year, i entirely forgot you were a prefect, until i saw your tie. thanks for helping our class, eh? you were a nice chairman. and the angel girl that you draw is so nice! and you know what? mumi loves your handwriting. she wants you to write everything on the board.
continue being enthu and rocking our class, k? GO DEBORAH! (and bring pipi to school for me to hug. heheh.)

5. alicia

alicia!! anime anime anime anime all day. sigh. i wonder how you manage to rant on and on and on about different anime..all the different characters. anyway..
thanks for crapping me up with anime. talking about different animes and ranting on when we go for tuition..go videoworld..go parkway..go heartland after tuition (sneakily)..and you must play basketball with alvina and me more ENTHULY! now unless we slam the ball to you you won't even try to score a goal. basketball will make you TALLER. so play basketball with us.

2005-07-09T06:26:00.000-07:00

had spa on friday. my test for hydrogen ended with a huge "POP" and i was mortified. genny accidentally sprayed water all over my paper and when i rubbed off my table to draw a new one, i made a small hole in the paper. so i passed up a hole-ified paper. my friend told me her friend accidentally poured iodine onto her paper and she passed up a blue paper.
today had french. headache with all the 'en's and 'ca's. and it's still the relief teacher. i like mr ywoozer better. =) i need to save lots of money for my zen..must SAVE MONEY!

3. jessica

hey jess! thanks for being my friend since..p3? we were in the same class for 5 years! record eh? roy mustang is yours also!! so sad. but as i said before, i shall be his long distance admirer and he'll fall in love with me also. heheh. he's so cute!
thanks for your ivy-ish post also! so honoured to be featured in someone's post. next time you should do a post on me and my putting of skills in the pocket with a hole. and the fact that everyday is "bully ivy day". *ahem. continue keeping me busy during science practicals by doing your own work and letting me pour acids and alkalis everywhere. i wonder if there's something wrong with our bunsen burner..it wouldn't light up during our spa. sad.

2005-07-06T05:20:00.000-07:00

2. liz
hey liz! roy mustang is your eh? ok i shall be nice and not steal him. will stick to ren and manta for the time being.
thanks for lending me shaman king! sorry for taking so long to read book 6, i'm still stuck at the first few pages. sorry..i will return to you as soon as possible. heehee..
thanks for chatting with me online..until you got irritated by my emoticon. hmph. overusage. now i have decided not to use any emoticons, lest you get irritated again.
hmm..i will continue lending you my correction fluid, ruler, pencil, pen, calculator..just ask before you take! nothing much to crap about since we're close. so yea. i shall end your dedication here. if there's anything you want me to add must tag more on my board!
ps. i can't find your tagboard.

2005-07-05T05:42:00.000-07:00

been quite busy recently. didn't have much time to blog.
i just realized how infatuated i was with ballet when i tryed to do a turn during class decor.
will be writing a dedication to my friends. people on the list: gillian, liz, jess, deb, alicia, alvina (though she won't read), ehui, kimmy. anybody who wanna hear what i think of them tag on my board! i will write you a dedication.

1. gillian
hey gill! thanks for chatting to me and notifying me that my emoticon ( =) ) is horrible and very irritating. still haven't found a situable emoticon so will be emoticon-less for the time being.
anyway..sorry for not being able to go out with you sooner or something. but i've been really caught up with stuff recently, lots of work and very tired. besides, my mom has something of a grudge against me. sad. will try to squeeze out time to eat lunch with you or something as soon as possible..friends forever! (when you coming back onto runescape?)

2005-07-04T19:02:00.000-07:00

in computer lab now. feeling really bored. people please tag on my board! keep it alive and out of the coma.

2005-06-30T06:23:00.000-07:00

my height and weight = horrible.
height is 149cm. i'm short!! even deborah is taller than me. by 0.5cm. jess is already 151cm!!!!!!!!! i need to grow! maybe i should drink grow. heheh.
weight is 41kg..well at least i lost 1.5kg. =) have to go jogging more..ran three rounds around the school and now i got kneeache.
i forgot to bring all my homework home and TOMORROW HAVE AV!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! help.

2005-06-28T05:13:00.000-07:00

i changed my layout. it's something made by me but the pic seems pixelated. oh well. comments?
had a hectic day of school and tennis yesterday. run run run run run. and fitness was horrible. must work out more!! today had nothing on, so went to mom's office to do work. going to start on dnt folio soon. must think a lot.
nothing much to blog about. keep my tagboard alive, k? thx!

leave me alone

2005-06-25T06:29:00.000-07:00

feel like fixing blogs.
went to play tennis with farah, rachel, her cousin and her brother on thursday. was very fun, five people on the court. and rachel's cousin is st andrew's c div captain!! sigh. she didn't tell us.
friday went for a haircut. my hair is thinner and shorter now. looks weird on me. maybe coz i'm not used to it. =)
today had the french test. i flunked it. didn't understand half the questions, wrote crap for most of the paper. our teacher declined to tell us the undesirable consequences if we failed. die.

2005-06-22T07:09:00.000-07:00

just started dinner (it's 10.09pm). went for ballet just now. =) very fun, except for the fact that i sprained my ankle.
anyway..playing tennis tomorrow! my coaches should rejoice. it's the first time i'm touching my tennis racket during the holidays. =) unless you count the time i touched it when i put it under the table. heehee.
friday going for a haircut! =) thinning my hair. it won't be so hot. my sweat was practically pouring out of me during practice today. got all wet. like bathing like that. =)
k gtg. i gotta ice my ankle.

2005-06-21T06:07:00.000-07:00

now that i've calmed down, i'm not angry with my parents anymore. and so i've deleted the previous post. =)
spent the most of each half an hour online for the past few days uploading pictures. so didn't have much time to blog. imagestation lags my computer a LOT! so much that i can't play runescape and i can't increase my crafting level and so, LAURA has gotten to level 40 before i did. =( sad.
today ran from home to school, back home, to kovan mrt, to ngee ann city, to boon keng, around the mrt station, back to school, and back home. just for the sake of some stupid letter.

2005-06-14T05:37:00.000-07:00

hey guys:
sorry about the class outing. i never expected dinie not to turn up at all, nor did i expect her to tell me she's got something on, only at the last moment. she had the games list and the wet-weather plan. about the rainstorm - sorry about that too. to liz, jess and deb: sorry about the water balloons because melissa tan, harshini, sarah, lorraine and the gang left at lunch. and farah and her group also left when the lightning and thunder became really bad, so it was only the three of you, desiree, alicia, nina and phoebe. we didn't know where you were, your bags were missing but phoebe and nina's was still there so i presumed you had left. that's why we just burst the water balloons on each other's feet, just to have some water fun and then leave the park. sorry for everything.

2005-06-11T05:47:00.000-07:00

my ankle hurts like hell!! shouldn't have ran so much when practicing for the dance full run today. =(
dance ended today. somehow i didn't like this week but it proved to be such nice bonding time for the whole dance group i was really happy..don't feel like taking a break from this dance. it's fun. =) sorry just crapping as usual.

2005-06-08T07:01:00.000-07:00

my toes hurt. my knees hurt. my head hurts. my arm hurts. everywhere hurts.
i don't wanna do 4 shannys (spinning) and 4 pique turns during the dance. on point. so disappointed with myself now. i practically fell onto the floor during practice today! gosh. so embarrassing.
i can't go on pointe. I JUST GO ON AND IT ALREADY HURTS LIKE HELL!!!!!!!!!!! gosh someone help me.

2005-06-07T07:12:00.000-07:00

got very angry today. i must learn to tolerate.
bloody fucking pissed during ballet today. i was so nervous and i kept forgetting movements in the dance. i just kept messing up. and i have to do two turns and then balance for 5 times!! oh my gosh. on POINT! my toes are already hurting when i'm balancing on my toes, not on a block of wood.
stupid W32.Kelvir virus blocked up my msn again. assholic idiotic thing. then waited for so long before i could log in to msn.
don't ever disown me, gillian! =)

2005-06-05T06:04:00.000-07:00

went for Stage-A-Fair this morning. was really nice! bought stainglass stuff, a pair of backphones and some books. also jumped with this skipping rope (the handle was metal, 500g each side) for one minute, and got a free book. =)
i ate the malt candy and it made me so "full". i felt full, but actually i wasn't. so in the end i got gastric, and it was horrible.
then after that, came back home and started calling people up about the class outing thing. please read the class blog. thanks.

2005-06-04T05:47:00.000-07:00

i feel very guilty now.
i never expected this to happen..i don't feel anything for him at all! what am i gonna do?! how did i manage to get myself into such a mess?! oh man..oh man..
i'm really confused now. the Lord please guide me. anybody who knows what i am talking about (no one?) please tag on my board..oh anyway JUST TAG!

2005-06-03T02:50:00.000-07:00

i want to be skinnier. feel so freaking fat.
went to do art again, brought all laura's starch back to use. =) now it's sticky!
addicted to runescape once again, because of alicia. she brought me back to the game..laura plays too! =)
k nothing much. TAG ON MY BOARD BEFORE IT DIES!!!!

2005-05-31T01:49:00.000-07:00

went out with pawpaw to plaza singapura just now. can tell you it was really tiring. because she walked everywhere.
first went to eat, then walked to spotlight!! my favourite shop!! most of my craft making needs are there. like sand (though its too expensive), felt, zips, blah blah..well, except my stainglass materials. we spent almost 1/2 hour to an hour inside looking at cloth. bought some zips and cloth for making a pencilcase. =)
went to world of sports! oh my gosh the sports tops there are so nice!! i fell in love with them, but unfortunately what i like is what my family doesn't like so i couldn't buy it. =(
went to u2..saw this really nice halter top with a camisole (spaghetti strap)!! another piece of clothing i went "goo-gaa-aa" over. wanted to buy...but as usual, family doesn't like. so sad.
in between went to other shops..but was so boring there, don't wanna describe it just in case i fall asleep in front of the computer.

2005-05-27T05:55:00.000-07:00

today was the worst last day of school i ever had. being single-handedly in charge of operation clean-up. curse period cramps.
well..stood for 20 minutes checking av stuff because assembly took so bloody long. so many announcements, so many lectures. in the end late for training at tjc. had long lectures again (too boring to describe), went back to school, operation clean up.
halfway, alvina fell sick, so she went to sick bay, then i had to ask people to do stuff because that was what alvina was supposed to do and she wasn't there so i had to do. =( but the training taught me to be more assertive over my classmates, so wasn't too difficult. =)
lots of crap about holiday homework and studying. don't want to. oh yea..
mdm seah barged in during operation clean up and started complaining we hadn't handed up art yet. so in the end we got lectured by mrs ho after the clean up and luckily we can pass up on first day of term 3. but i still think mdm seah's unfair. ass hole. think that we can be bullied. =(

2005-05-25T06:58:00.000-07:00

am typing this in notepad because my internet connection has backed out on me for the second time today. anyway..today had softball. we lost to 2e2 6-4 but won 2e5 (i forgot the score). whoots! let's just hope we make it to the finals, but i warn all softballers out there that it'll be though because we have to hit a ball that is thrown up, not on the stand thingy. =( feel better now than after the first match, thanks to one of my good friends. =)guess what? i'm a sports leader. all because of AV. well, alvina's the sports captain for computer club, and i was made the sports captain (believe me, some teacher sabo-ed me) of av. wth?! and the worse thing is, since the teacher said so, i have to be. and i'm not even sure which teacher it is (ms lee sn or ms saffiah) so yea, i can't point fingers. and then when i saw mdm lee, she said "your cca is av right?" then i said "nope i'm in tennis. but i'm an av board member." then she went "oh good!" i was super shocked!! then she told me about this sports leader thing and this training where we will learn some stuff and there'll be this test one day. and if we pass this test, we'll be an official sports leader, get a certificate and a collar pin. and then she asked me if i danced. as usual, the dumbo me said "yea i learn ballet." and guess what? she put me in charge of ACES day dance (i'm sure you all remember the crappy dances we had last year with so many segments) and i think so far, she's only got me and the sports captain of DANCE working on it. fantastic. some stupid dance. and i'm supposed to help PLAN the interclass ultimate frisbee competition (post-exam activity) for the sec 3s. really pissed at the person who made me this sports captain thingy. just those words of "ivy's the sports captain of av" lands me with ACES day dance, organizing ultimate frisbee and some dumb training. but at least i miss school on friday. until 12.30, then i'll be back to clean the classroom. =(

2005-05-24T06:42:00.000-07:00

so sad! so happy! so unbelievable!
today was the special day! =) found birthday greetings on the whiteboard the moment i stepped into class. was super shocked. also selected our new class committee (mumtaz, harshini, wanshi, aida, evonne and nina). finished the choirboys movie with a really sloppy ending. so bad right? =(
yay! i finally got my thumbdrive! =) also got a pair of earrings, a pen and a clip. =) THANKS!

2005-05-23T06:10:00.000-07:00

church camp ended today. the food was quite good (mixed rice for 3 meals and western food for one) and our sleeping area was made more comfy by the 2cm high mattresses that they provided. IHM rocks! =) played 3-legged captains' ball, waterbomb war (i was in the infantry but became a commando in the end), egg challenge (protecting the egg when it's dropped from a height of 8 feet) and lots of sessions. lots of talks on addiction, sex, temptation, drugs, blah blah.
yea. that's it.

2005-05-19T04:05:00.000-07:00

softball was quite nice today. i never knew i could bat. =)
yay! mdm seah's in china! we have 2 whole free periods tmr! freedom! but what can we do in the art room? =(
k nothing much to blog about. don't really understand the tactics of softball but, WHO CARES?!
KEEP MY TAGBOARD ALIVE
ooh. i didn't know. so am i?

2005-05-16T06:20:00.000-07:00

the choirboys' movie soundtrack is so nice!!! AHH!!! =) morhange rocks! pepinot's quite cute too.
failed home econs. got a d7. at least my a1 for term one might pull it up. just hope it will.
i passed seq! i was really surprised when i got my marks back. didn't even know i could DO seq. hopefully it'll also pull up my marks.
had tennis today. coach qing let us play baseball tennis. like softball, we're supposed to whack a ball somewhere and then run to first base. if got time, run to second base. if got time, run to third base. if got some more time, run to fourth base. i did one home run, then the second time i ran, i stopped at third base coz was too tired and my teammate went to third base too so we were out. and we lost the game. =( very fun game though!
i don't give a damn whether i'm skinny or anorexic. you say i am, but i don't think i am. you think i'm anorexic and now you wanna scare me by telling me a girl who's bigger sized than me fainted in school coz she was anorexic. wtf?! what are you trying to tell me? make it clear lah! !@#$%^&*

2005-05-13T18:28:00.000-07:00

yay! tonight me and my family going out for mother's day dinner (i know its one week late)! whoots! =) so cool. haven't been out to eat dinner for so long.
yesterday was fun. an exceptionally wonderful friday (the 13th). no scoldings! lots of slacking! nice water bombs (which only hit my feet, haha)! after school had tuition with alicia. alicia's going to the same tuition place as me! yay! i have a companion! =) sang the 'xiao wan zi' song loads of times and the rainbow song too.

2005-05-10T04:15:00.000-07:00

mr teo is weird.
he has so many things to do and knows me as 'this girl'. anyway scored a nine each for both of my drawings. YAY! I LOVE ISOMETRIC AND ORTHOPEDIC DRAWINGS!! =)
failed history yet again. sigh.
sorry nothing much to blog about.
MATHS SUX!
ALGEBRA SUX!
GRAPHS ROCK!
sorry. tata.

2005-05-08T06:12:00.000-07:00

had a horrible ballet lesson today. for some reason im stiff. every part of me is wrongly positioned. couldn't even do a point properly. hand wrong position. can't balance. everything wrong.
had a horrible electone lesson yesterday. we had to learn this japanese song. and its a grade 6, which im supposed to be able to play, and i can't play this song. was so bloody irritated.
similarities? they both make me think that i can't do what i've been able to do (play the electone and dance properly) for the past 10 years.
three new people joined french class. two boys one girl. girls still outnumber guys though! MUAHAHAHA! =)

2005-05-06T20:31:00.000-07:00

now at alliance francois.
actually went to plaza singapura to buy some stabilo markers since ms yong booked my black one. so went to carrefour (that's the only place which sells it when i last checked). i went there, looked for it, and realized it's out of stock. so just in case i bought some other weird brand one (there was no other brand already! pilot markers' ink run out very fast) but i have some doubts about the reliability of the markers.
yesterday drank corn soup for both recess and lunch. its an addiction! i love it.. recess some idiot pushed me and the corn soup is those thick thick kind so it just flowed onto my hand and kinda like, stayed there. in the end my hand was scalded. was red for a while. today it's better already.
k gotta go. TAG PLEASE!

2005-05-03T03:37:00.000-07:00

so pissed.
i really don't know what is expected of me and my friends at times. do the teachers expect us to perfect students able to delve into their minds and extract the info that they're supposed to study for their test? the timing for our history test is so unreasonable. we have only TWO periods before the test to cover EVERYTHING. that means cram cram cram. and that means i can't do well. wtf. every history test goes wrong. history's not boring, but i hate the tests. i just like reading about the things happening long ago.
during lunch at videoworld today was talking with joanne, alvina, alicia and genevieve about ms saffiah. joanne was telling us about her laugh when we were walking there and we all started laughing. anyway we started talking about ms saffiah and how bad she is to us sometimes so after that, i told them about av. i was doing av long time ago at the start of the year and was the first one to arrive so was the one to teach ms saffiah how to handle the av equipment. then i remember after school got av training so i went and then ms saffiah was there and she said "this girl helped me tremendously with the av equipment this morning. she did a very good job!" in front of everybody or something and i was like "er.....ok......". quite funny actually. then we started talking about jobs from teachers. and that brought back p4 and p5 memories.
so sad lor. my p4 chinese teacher so called 'contributed' to the fact that i got appendicities. almost every recess i would be doing something or the other for her. examples: running to the dance studio with the radio, retrieving books from her cubicle in the staff room. one time during lessons her shoe spoilt and she even made me run to the staff room during lessons and get her other pair of shoes. thus causing me to miss half of my favourite lesson. stupid. almost the same thing for p5. and lots of stress due to chinese dance. have to practice so much. and i ended up with appendicities in p5. so its all chinese dance's fault!!!! grrr. all they gave me in p5 for all my work was just a dumb EAGLES award for service. even though i hadn't gotten appendicities yet (that was in dec), it didn't make up. after i got appendicities it was worse. who went through the pain? who did all the work? who was kept in the dark while you all claimed the credit? who was the one who had to 'slave' away and help with no say in the matter at all? ME! who was the one who had to pay the fees and endure the emotional pain? who was the one who had to pretend everything was alright? who was the one who ended up with knee problems? who was the one who had to endure stomach pain while doing sit ups? ME! NOT YOU! DUCKASS! everything also had to push to me. in the end i suffered. and what did i get in return for all my pain, hardwork and sweat? NOTHING! everything was YOUR FAULT! everything that took the happiness out of my life for those two years were YOUR FAULT!! i would have had a perfect december that year if not for her. curse that idiotic butt! ASSHOLE!!!! EVERYTHING'S YOUR FAULT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fucking bitch.

2005-05-01T19:47:00.000-07:00

so tired now. but at least i got all my science revision done. hope i can score for tomorrow's test. *cross fingers*

2005-05-01T05:33:00.000-07:00

sometimes i really feel so weird. at school, i'm usually not grumpy. but at home, i'm so grouchy. almost every other thing that my parents or grandma ask me i'll get irritated. its like pms everyday! i really wish i could stop getting irritated so easily and just enjoy life. maybe that'll make everyone happier. if i held in my temper, then it would make everyone happy. i just wish i had the strength to.
hoo boy! i might get to buy my tennis shoes tomorrow! whee!

2005-04-28T21:38:00.000-07:00

i don't want to do the chinese compo later i don't want to do the chinese compo later i don't want to do the chinese compo later i don't want to do the chinese compo later i don't want to do the chinese compo later i don't want to do the chinese compo later i don't want to do the chinese compo later i don't want to do the chinese compo later i don't want to do the chinese compo later

2005-04-27T05:27:00.000-07:00

i have flu. tickly throat, horrible muscle cramps, painful joints, fever (39 degrees), dizziness. mc tmr. someone collect my hw.

2005-04-26T03:09:00.000-07:00

tired tired tired. have yet to find a nice blog layout..
have a horrible headache and a swollen knee. so sad..=( anyway this will be a super short post. first, nothing to post about. second, i need to go. tata.

2005-04-22T20:17:00.000-07:00

i'm just here to crap about how i'm feeling right now.
i feel really lousy. to think that i actually put in all my effort into my studies and my results just remain at that low standard and no matter how much effort i put in, its still stuck there. no 'upgrading' service. what kind of studying life is that, when i dont' even get any improvement? i tried so hard, and i didn't get in. but people who just anyhow chose an answer, they got in. (im not talking about aus maths comp. im talking about something else.) what kind of logic is that?!
so lonely now. its actually not much reason talking to friends about this matter because i just feel that somehow they won't understand.
sometimes i just don't succeed in doing anything at all. it seems to me that i'm only doing well in ONE thing. organ. even my ballet is going down. everything's going down, everyone's catching up and i'm staying still, no matter how i try. it makes me so pissed sometimes.
i still don't feel better. but i have to go anyway. bb.

2005-04-22T01:58:00.000-07:00

today was a really weird day.
first av dragged on until shu yi (the supervisor) told us to leave as we were almost 20minutes late for lessons. so we (me and hsiao chin, my junior) left. i went back to class and took my history, chinese and music stuff and went to com lab one. there, we got a scolding on the lateness. after that mrs ho didn't come so we just blogged and played comp games and stuff. and commented on her two lame posts.
second. music lesson. we got our first lesson about life for the day. ms lau talked and talked about us saying 'i don't know'. then we played bach's minuet. very nice song. =)
then we had art. *drumroll* first mdm seah took the chinese ws that laura was completing (together with alvina's which laura was copying from) and crumpled them. then julia bravely rescued them. =) nice chairman. then she threw a tantrum like a small kid insisting that she didn't care and wanted marissa and i forgot who (sorry) to get the materials for the 3d project IMMEDIATELY. and it was 5 mins to our science test. then she started crying blah blah blah. shit lah she. sure complain one. wanna curse her. talking about cursing...let me introduce....

the a-z of MSCT

a: abominable ass
b: bodoh breasts
c: chicken cock
d: diffused duckass
e: elephant eyes
f: fucking freak
g: goondu gorilless
h: humongous horn
i: idiotic iceboob
j: jumbo jackfruit
k: kiddish kingkong
l: lousy lemon
m: motherfucking moron
n: notorious noob
o: osmosised ox
p: peachy poop
q: questioning quack
r: rebutting rhino
s: stupid stuperwoman
t: transpiring toot
u: urinous urea
v: vicious vixen
w: whooping wacker
x: xtreme xraybutt
y: yakking yelper
z: zongone zit

copyrighted by our group =)

2005-04-21T04:03:00.000-07:00

during tennis today i reached a personal goal. when running the four rounds around the courts for warmups, i beat suriani(sp?), azzah and the seniors! i was first! i was really happy, though my hitting was horrible. =)
nothing else that is nice to blog about. science test tomorrow. had to forget to bring my book back today.
can't log into another blog. weird weird weird.

2005-04-20T05:10:00.000-07:00

today i was super bloody tired. for no reason! fell asleep on the end of the bus ride on 80 (going towards tuition teacher's new house) and the whole ride on 101 (after tuition). my tuition teacher's new house is nice i guess. quite pretty and exquisite. =) anyway i was so tired i couldn't even OPEN my eyes when i nearly reached my stop! couldn't believe it.
got two nice wristbands. both black. =)

2005-04-19T05:37:00.000-07:00

today happens to be one of the worst days in a school week. first. we had a maths test, which i'm sure i will pass with borderline marks or fail. second, we had our home econs practical. turned out horrible because we had to 'redo' our pizza and our 'agar agar' didn't settle. so it was grape juice plus nata de coco. third, we had a history test. this was a sbq test and i'm dead if i don't pass this one. *crosses fingers* then, we had to pass up our chinese script which wasn't finished yet. so i passed it up, unfinished. then lit. finally! something which didn't wreck havoc in my schoolday. =) everything went well. started saying lines in our script.
oh then i went to help desiree and huda with their band stuff. then i went to eat and then i went home and did the science worksheet. then i used the computer. and just then........*drumroll*
i got a virus in msn. azian passed it to me. actually, it was so fast she didn't even know it. =) it happened to me, and after i got some advice, i uninstalled msn and installed it again. so now, my computer is virus free.
oh no. english compre and then science mcq (or the other way round) on thursday. wish the school wouldn't cram all the tests.

2005-04-17T00:29:00.000-07:00

today was better than average. except for the fact that i'm not going for ballet.
pawpaw felt like going out so i brought her to compass point. wanted to buy wristbands there but couldn't find any with the colours i liked. but anyway, i got my long desired walkman holder and 5 small cds. so cute!
yea that's all. nothing much to blog about. tag on my board..

oh blah.

2005-04-14T20:31:00.000-07:00

oh blah. its english now and we have to write a stupid formal letter for the sake of a dumb enterperneurship project thing. stupid right? this might be help to us in future but i still think it's super dumb. i haven't even found out the address of the place that i'm supposed to write to. stupppid. dumb. yucky.

2005-04-13T04:37:00.000-07:00

i knew it. i'm in history remedial. this is horrible. at least i'm not alone and liz is with me. =)
anyway today ms lee wasted 25mins of my time which i could have used by taking the bus and going for tuition, so it wouldn't have ended so late. hmph. luckily i finished my maths homework quickly, if not i wouldn't even be here.
today was a terrible day. my knees hurt really badly as i was walking up and down stairs. i really really really really really hope that there's no permanent damage to them..if there is i might not be able to take tennis or whatever again..and that's one thing i don't wanna give up.
and now mom is chasing me for the two chinese compos i owe her from two weeks ago and last week. wth. i don't have anything to write about. the more she makes me do compos, the more i hate chinese. and that is exactly what's happening to ALL my subjects now. i hate them. maybe except pe. =) no pressure there. she doesn't even KNOW that we're learning hockey, or the fact that i suck at it.
got my chinese ca marks back today. i got a 41half. even though my mom and tuition teacher both said it wasn't bad, quite good, i could feel their disappointment. and my mom's disappointment became evident when she said that i could get a 50+. i wasn't too pleased with my marks even though its not bad, because i know i can do better. but i didn't. and now for other cas i have to work harder to make my b4 chinese an a1. ='(
i just know that there's something wrong with me..but what is it?

2005-04-11T05:24:00.000-07:00

oh what the bloody hell. i hate the electone. i hate electone exam pieces, plus sight reading, improvisation and whatever other crap they have.
i suddenly got very scared of seeing the doctor (the specialist on fractured legs) on friday. what if my bone hasn't healed yet? the crack was quite obvious and big when i first took the xray on the day i hurt my leg..i don't want to have to go back on crutches or even skip pe or tennis or ballet anymore..in other words, i miss exercising.
and there might be something wrong with my knees..they were weak before but now its even weaker..i can actually FEEL the friction between my bones. crossing my fingers and hoping that there's no lasting damage..but i have a bad feeling about it because my knees hurt quite badly when i did ballet yesterday. what the fu**. i'm so dead IF I CAN'T GO FOR MY DANCE MUSICAL!!! i counted..i went for a total of 15 performances. and i want that list to keep increasing..
no more running-around-the-place jobs for me or any other talk talk talk yak yak yak duties. i want to retire.

2005-04-09T05:46:00.000-07:00

so blardy fed up with everything. can't wait for monday.